Updated: Jan 24, 2018
I think as Christians because we do not have the appearance of going through to those who are outside looking in. They have this jaded thought of Christians having an easier life. Which of course could not be further than the truth. The pressure on this walk, can get intense at times. However, one thing we can always rest on when it does get to that point, there is something to gain. We just have to push through to attain that end result. Romans 5:4 states, "And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation." Victory is ALWAYS OUR PORTION....we just have to remember that while pushing.
Sooooooo, last week I experienced a major blow. Feeling a little weak I began to question myself. I realized I wasn’t on point in certain areas as I thought. I was so busy working on other areas that I neglected one. Sadly it is moments like this, that the enemy likes to ease on in to cause destruction. We all know he's just waiting on a moment to knock you off your game. He's a purpose stealing, big distraction, no fair fighting...but most in importantly he is a LOSER! In spite of feeling "blah," I decided to push through the feeling. Then I received a random, yet sweet text message telling me that my walk is inspiring. So I immediately stopped and thanked the Lord for that reminder.
The following day I made a quick run to the store. A lady I never met approached me. Her exact words “you are about your father’s business.” Then she went on to say that she’s not my friend online, but she’s sees me. She also mentioned my clothes were inspiring. What she didn’t know was that the Lord was using her to remind me a second time. Again, I smiled as I stood in amazement. God cared enough to remind me again.
After a busy weekend of various events, activities, more attacks were still coming. However, I did not allow the feeling of defeat to overtake me. I prayed and kept moving. I refused to let the reminders the Lord personally sent me to be in vain. I woke up on Monday wide awake. I know I didn't get a full night of rest, but I felt well rested. I had an in my spirit to get moving. Unsure as to what to do, but knowing it was SOMETHING TO DO. So after sitting, praying, searching online, I got up to throw on some clothes. I couldn’t get the answers I was seeking online. I needed to get them from somewhere else. So I drove up to my first destination, with a little hesitation. I know it’s something I need, not sure even how to put it in words. As I opened the door to the car, my phone goes off. It was a video. The month prior, I was selected by vote to shoot a free commercial with a company called "Allsony, Let's Go." This was the finished commercial. Again, another reminder. Another moment of me hesitating and the Lord saying, " I got this." I immediately uploaded the video on Instagram and on Facebook. Then I proceeded to take care of business. My first stop was not the most favorable, but I said to myself go to one more place. I still needed an answer. In that next place I found favor. I found answers and I saw hope that the vision I have within, was not as far fetched as I thought.
Once I was comfy at home, I got a chance to catch up on the notifications I was getting from social media. In amazement, I saw that the video was shared several times. My first thought was Lord you have done it again! Through the video the Lord showed me, that even in my imperfections I am his. He reminded me that his hand is still upon my life regardless of what it may look (and feel) like! I remember praying before we shot the video. I was led to. I'm just so grateful for obedience in that moment. "The mind of man plans his way, But the LORD directs his step." Proverbs 16:9 I truly believe that the response to the video was my answer to that prayer. Its was not the actual video itself or the words I spoke...it was the fact that the Lord released an anointing for it. My desire was for it to inspire, but never in a million years did I think it would reach so many people.
I wanted to encourage someone else to keep going. To push in spite of what is screaming no around you. No matter the obstacle it is possible through the Lord Jesus Christ. If the Lord called you to do something and you don't understand how, this word is for you. He will give you the grace to excel.
"Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us" Ephesians 3:20
"Jesus looked at them intently and said, "Humanly speaking, it is impossible. But with God everything is possible."Matthew 19:26